Merry Upcoming New Year!

As seen in my previous who-knows-how-many-posts, I haven’t had the best year in the world, but, here’s to a better 2012.

 I’m getting married. I get to see numerous people I haven’t in years. I might even get to go on a Vacation. O.O My resolution this year is to simply try harder. This encompasses almost every aspect of my life. I’m going to try harder to be a better person, a better partner to my fiancé, try to not complain as much, have a better health perspective, to have a better attitude in general. I also want to be a better blogger for anyone who has, is and will read my posts.

I know that not everything is going to work out for me. That’s what failing is for. I just need to grow from it. I want feedback in all I do, that’s the only way I know what I’m doing wrong and right.

I have an idea swimming around in my head of starting up a YouTube channel. If/when that happens I’ll let you know. I just feel really intimidated putting more of me out there but I started writing this blog, so, why not try? As Maureen Johnson said on the Vlogbrothers channel one time, “You have to dare to suck.” (Best advice in the world!)

In order to become a better anything you have to try and in trying comes failure some, if not most, of the time. Without failure there is no learning. I enjoy putting things together simply because I’m allowed to screw up, undo it, and put it together the right way or in a better way.

Back when I first moved to Colorado I started to write my book again. It was my second attempt to streamline my conscious effort to put it on the computer. I believe I was on the fifth or sixth chapter when the most horrific thing that could ever happen to an author happened. Up popped a message, randomly after a stroke of a couple keys, asking if I would like to save my progress. I said, “Yes, of course I want to save my progress, this is one of the most important things to me. Why wouldn’t I want to save?” Little did I know I was saving a completely blank document.

Lacking in technical expertise (still am but not as much) I closed the page and tried to reload my work. It was completely gone. Not to be recovered ever again. It was gone to the pit of despair. Wherever I banished it, it was gone forever. I cried. Seriously I walked into my bedroom fell face down on my comforter and wept until I called my now fiancé.

Now I see that without that failure, however stupid it was, I would never have learned a few wonderful lessons. One, that I need to make sure of what I’m doing before I close anything I’m working on. Two, that version of my book absolutely sucked. If I had continued typing it without that loss I would never have wanted to change it because I had worked so hard on it.

John Green wrote Looking for Alaska and then proceeded to delete the great majority of it in order to make it better. Writing is a process. It requires a great amount of commitment and concentration. And for those of you who have made it this far, thank you. Thank you for reading my processes.

“Books don’t automatically update.” ~John Green.

Happy New Year! And DFTBA!